1am Ramblings on the Importance of Doing Things

*This post was written between 1:15 and 1:40 am so please disregard any sentences that seem to be awkward.

I have to say, I feel really great right now. There’s nothing better than the feeling like I’m actually accomplishing and doing things. I’m not just talking about all the things that I maybe want to do at some point in the future…I’m actually doing them. And that feels great.

It’s one-something in the morning and I can’t sleep because I’m buzzing on how much I’ve gotten done lately. I submitted my first application for a summer internship, I finished a three-credit college course in two weeks, I spent quality time with a childhood friend, and I drank hot chocolate while watching Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Oh, and I actually started this freaking blog, a project I’ve been talking about, thinking about, and coming up with ideas on what to write about for over a year. Why should anything stop me from doing what I want to do, you know?

It took a year of me studying writing at the college-level for me to realize that it wasn’t exactly what I wanted. Don’t get me wrong, I love writing and always will; but I found that once I started doing it for a grade and in preparation for the professional world, I kind of lost all my passion and excitement for it. I stopped thinking of new story ideas in the middle of the night. I put all my writing-energy into my coursework so I stopped having any motivation to do it for myself.

For the first time in a long time, this feels right. I feel happy and excited about this project. I feel the its-super-late-but-I’m-going-to-keep-writing-anyways kind of feeling again. And it’s great. It’s so great that I want to encapsulate these feelings on the page so I can look back at how wonderful it is to get things done.

All the best,


New Year’s Resolutions?

I meant to post this a few days ago but for the past two weeks I’ve been taking Principles of Microeconomics at a community college by my house so I could finish my Gen. Ed requirements and get out of a semester-long math class. However, fitting in the fifteen weeks of work into two was actually kind of a waste of time. I wrote most of this post during a discussion on currency exchange and at one point my professor left the room to grade papers for so long that me and three other people in my class left the building, drove down the street, bought pizza, drove back, and ate the pizza without my professor even noticing. He came back in the room about thirty minutes later and said “where did that pizza box come from?” I’m glad that the money I spent on the course and the $94 textbook that sat in the backseat of my car the whole time went to good use.

Anyways, the course is over now so let’s talk about New Year’s Resolutions.

Do you notice how at the start of every New Year (after the hangover subsides) we all restart the clock and collectively deicide that we totally want to run more miles, lose more weight, and become better people? I’m all for self-improvement, but do you notice that most people only focus on improving their appearance?

If I were to sift through the many articles recommending goals to set for the New Year that keep popping up on my social media pages, the majority the articles that are not listing ways to lose those extra pounds or offering tips on going to the gym more often are about romantic relationships. I saw articles with titles like “relationships resolutions” and “dating resolutions all single girls should make.” So basically, you have two options: you should focus on making yourself look more attractive, or you should change yourself so then someone else can find you attractive.

Why is it that self-improvement and becoming better versions of ourselves is synonymous with losing weight and being skinnier and more physically attractive?

We live in a culture that promotes being thin and fears being fat. That’s why we care so much about dropping pounds and fitting beauty standards. I’ve felt that pressure. I’ve made resolutions to lose extra weight and it didn’t do much for me. I found that making those resolutions only made me feel bad about eating high-calorie food and stare in mirrors more often. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to eat more veggies or go running, but people should set these goals for the rights reasons. Let me tell you, there’s so much more to a person than looks and weight (you know, brains, talent, personal achievement, etc.) and we should work to focus on that more.

This year, my goal is to focus on self-care and self-love.

I don’t want to create a list of my flaws that I want to improve, I want to work on remembering what I actually like about myself and what makes me happy. I think we should all do more things that make us happy in 2015. Whether that’s taking more time for yourself, or giving yourself a day to do nothing in pajamas, or maybe challenge yourself to start a new project or a hobby. Or my personal favorite, stand in front of a mirror and tell yourself you’re awesome every now and again.

Let’s not put ourselves down. Let’s not only focus on what we feel like we need to fix about ourselves. Let’s not fret about our weight so much. Instead, let’s focus on what we love about ourselves.

Here’s to a year full of self-care.

All the best,